all the dreams and hopes are made of your eyes

2009-11-25T04:30:00.000-08:00

BECAUSE I AM FAIL. LOL

MOVING TO A NEW BLOG. REFRESH EVERYTHING AND START THIS UP AGAIN.

NEW PLACE: http://harroclarice.tumblr.com

Need to stop forgetting about blogging

2009-09-08T20:57:00.000-07:00

I need to turn to blogging more often...I don't know what happened. Last year, I posted a lot more, now even on LJ, I don't write as much...it's not that there's nothing to do, I just can't seem to sit down and type.

Still, before I realize, summer is coming to a close and now...I'm going to look back at the "goals" I had set for myself.

Got a job! Most of you guys already know, I should be working in Sam's mom's insurance office as an assistant of some sort. Hopefully I can do really well and expect a little more out of it. Kinda anxious for it to start, definitely.
So how did this turn out? Actually...pretty good. I got a nice little sum for working there, learned some basic working/office skills, got to sit in an office with air conditioning~

I made the choice to learn Japanese, so this summer, I'm still going to open the textbooks and review my Japanese, especially grammar. I want to be proficient! So I can to go to Japan again and get around without too much English and wild hand gestures...
This is the one...I didn't exactly get time to go over. But hmm seeing that I have about 10 days left before going back to SD, maybe I still have a chance to refresh everything.

...Which means, I must make a return to watching Jdramas.
But somehow...I did get around to watching two dramas while on vacation! Kimura Takuya's MR. BRAIN and Amani Yuki's BOSS. Both are under the mystery/detective genre, which I've realized I really like to watch now.

Learn more around the kitchen. Last summer I learned how to prepare food to be cooked, this time I hope to be able to at least cook up some simple dishes from my dad.
I did learn how to sauteed and certain rules for cooking certain foods...frying fish is a bit fun, but I'm still not used to hot oil jumping on to my skin.

In general though, still be of more help to my parents. (: I admit I don't like housework, but I need to be less lazy and spend more time with my family.
Haha this one I got done, in fact today I just cleaned all the blinds in my room, something that my mom has done every summer.

That's really it for now. Getting ready to get back into the swing of university life soon! (:

Summer so far...

2009-07-22T09:30:00.000-07:00

So now it's the end of July, almost about halfway through this summer. I forgot about blogging here until today. What have I been up to?
Pretty much, this is one busy yet boring summer. Of course, I shouldn't be complaining of the fact that I have a job, but I'm waking up earlier than I ever did during the first year of college and it's a bit hard to believe I'm sitting in the same chair for about 8 hours every Monday through Friday. I know this is the office life and most people go through this without complaining at all, but I can't help it at the moment. None of this has to do with my boss, who is, as many of you guys know, is Sam's mom. She's very much like her son, laid back and generally happy.
That's not really the main point of the post though. Sadly, this is a not-so-happy post. Weird thing is, I'm feeling lonely right now. I hope I don't sound like I'm seeking attention or being extremely whiny. I know one of the reasons for this are the circumstances I'm under right now. Everyone I want to see is far away, whether the friends are 45 minutes away or all over California or in Taiwan, China, Singapore. Of course, I've been talking online and that does help though. And I have my brother, who provides me hours and hours of amusement. Sucks though, because I've been getting into stupid arguments/misunderstandings with my mom and sometimes just venting a bit to my brother doesn't exactly help.
Regardless though, I think I'll be able to get through this alright. I just need some time. And besides, in a few more weeks, I'll be on a real vacation, where work isn't involved and I can relax.

When the blue sky and ocean shine and overlap, the tears will dry, summer is smiling

2009-06-03T02:49:00.000-07:00

Just like Connie, for me, the end of my first year in college is soon coming to a close. What Thomas said today, I also agree: things will be different next school year (not that they'll be bad) so we should cherish the memories of this year! Couldn't help getting a bit emotional and especially thinking how I'll be this summer (in a certain relationship with a certain someone that I know you guys know what I'm talking about). I just want this to pull through summer just fine, seriously, I know I might overthink things, but it's something I can't help?

But on a lighter note though, there are things to look forward for the summer and goals to fulfill (or at the very least, give a good effort in trying to fulfill).
-Got a job! Most of you guys already know, I should be working in Sam's mom's insurance office as an assistant of some sort. Hopefully I can do really well and expect a little more out of it. Kinda anxious for it to start, definitely.
-I made the choice to learn Japanese, so this summer, I'm still going to open the textbooks and review my Japanese, especially grammar. I want to be proficient! So I can to go to Japan again and get around without too much English and wild hand gestures.
-Which means, I must make a return to watching Jdramas.
-Learn more around the kitchen. Last summer I learned how to prepare food to be cooked, this time I hope to be able to at least cook up some simple dishes from my dad.
-In general though, still be of more help to my parents. (: I admit I don't like housework, but I need to be less lazy and spend more time with my family.

Looks like a good list to fulfill for now. If there's anything else, I'll mention it next time!

oh when you tell me you love me, when you tell me thousands and millions of times...

2009-05-24T17:27:00.000-07:00

Funny that I somehow manage to turn this blog into a place to dump sad thoughts. You can tell that I've been alright this last month. But hey, there should be more things written here, whether they're short or long. (Random) thoughts so far:

-I really want to make special ringtones for everyone, just like the way Ken does it...except my phone can't hold up that many songs. D:
-Despite the fact I can last more than just 2 weeks at UCSD before wanting to go home, as always, no matter what, being home is really nice. Kind of like a getaway from all the hectic parts of university life.
-Looking forward to HKSU's dance on Friday and the kayaking event on Sunday!
-Looking even MORE forward to tonight's high school reunion whoooo! And the dinner my parents are preparing for the whole family tonight. :D
-I. need. a. job. :/
-Still thinking about where I want to apply to for study abroad. Actually the choices have been narrowed down to two, and these two look so much fun haha...

Break the Records

2009-04-27T22:23:00.000-07:00

Music really does things for you, especially when you love the artist(s). KAT-TUN's new album is really good, I like all the songs and this new yet still-very-KAT-TUN-ish style. (:

How is it I feel the need to blog whenever there's studying to be done? Maybe it's because the stress. Anyhow, I've got to remember to blog more often...almost one month has passed and yeah of course, relationship-wise, I'm happy. Time flies and I want the best for this. Funny though, when parents enter the picture. I know that it's because I'm their daughter and this is the first relationship I've ever been in, but it sort makes me a bit down when there's a chance that my parents won't approve of Sam. I told my mom on the phone today that I didn't want that, because that wouldn't be good of course. And ironically it was my mom who said back to me, "well if you really do like him, then you wouldn't care whether or not your dad and I approved of him or not". And it's true right? As freaking sappy as it sounds, after the phone conversation I had to talk to Sam and tell him that even if my parents disapproved of him, I'd still want to be with him.

Still I respect my parents very much and I hope that when someday the whole "meeting the parents" thing comes along, it'll be perfectly fine so that I can look back at this and think "haha how silly I was to be worrying about this then". Maybe it's because I haven't experienced the nasty combination of love and rough reality yet. It's something I really rather not have to deal with though. Still, at the same time, maybe it's just me thinking way too much? Being self-conscious is a "weakness" of mine, I admit. Don't get me wrong, there's nothing I regret about this, just today's circumstances just made me think a little more than usual.

Just as planned we're the winners, no wonder we are team of dream

2009-04-06T19:50:00.000-07:00

What to say? I should probably not use this blog as this place to dump all my sad thoughts...not saying I was always planning to do that, but the last few posts sure seemed like it.

It's not like the few people who read this blog don't know about what's been going on for the last couple of weeks, so yes, I will say that I'm pretty happy right now. However, I think I slept too much today.. I love sleeping and all, but I feel pretty exhausted.

Yeah okay something with more substance next time around. :P

L-O-V-E you, I was made to be with you

2009-03-27T19:40:00.000-07:00

Epik High is so awesome.

Before I even had time to think about it, spring break is almost over. I've been doing a lot of stuff for the past week and I'm really happy I was able to spend time with both my friends and family throughout the week! Monday was afternon shopping with Connie, Tuesday was going off to Hollywood to see Utada with Tiff, Ken, Kim, Eric, Willis, and Will~~~ Wednesday was lunch with Jono! Yesterday night was the spring break get-together of our high school friends, but new faces showed up and it was a lot of fun just to relax, eat, and talk. All this just makes me think of how lucky I am to have such a life, with wonderful friends and family. Yeah I'm always talking about it, but I really mean it.

In general I'm very happy, although there's something that's making me confused. Not going to say what, but it does make things seem like a roller coaster.

you've got the wrong number

2009-03-20T00:34:00.000-07:00

I didn't know what to title this entry, but Wrong Number just so happened to play, so...there we go.

Blogging about my actual life and the thoughts that go around in my head is actually something I need to get used to, because I have to say it's kind of hard for me to express myself sometimes, especially online. Fangirling is one thing, that's easy. This, umm..."blogging issue" has nothing to do with friends, I love you guys for always being there for me even when I'm being really weird and unreasonable; it's more of something I have to deal with myself I guess? Finals were really hectic and now that I'm sitting on my bed with plenty of time to think, this is the first that pops up in my mind.

The last post is still sort of with me, I think I might have found out what's been eating at me, but once again, I'm not too sure if what I'm assuming is actually it...Haha I'm still confusing myself huh? I'll be okay though, spring break is here and it should be fun!

heartquake

2009-03-17T01:49:00.000-07:00

All of a sudden I feel like my heart and mind are feeling really heavy, enough I want to tear them out. But I can't do that, because guess what, I have no idea what's going on in my head. And it's not academic stress. It's not something I can or want to talk about (I'm lost and confused), but I feel like I had to throw this out somewhere, and so this blog will do for now. I think I'll sink myself into a lot of DBSK's ballads for the time being, maybe they'll do the trick.

The first music list of many!

2009-03-11T18:24:00.000-07:00

Combining Connie and Ken's music list, so here I'm posting 10 songs that 1) I've discovered/been listening to lately (as in the last two weeks) and 2) I'm liking very much. They're not in any particular ranking. I like making song lists, hopefully they'll have a lot more meaning in them though. But they'll probably be centered around artists though, it's easier for me.

01. Super Junior - 쏘리 쏘리 (SORRY, SORRY)
sorry sorry sorry sorry / shawty shawty shawty...I've had these lines running through my head for the whole week. Super Junior returns to the Korean music scene (today) with a catchy yet sophisticated dance song with heavy beats. Yes the chorus is repetitive but somehow this song works and I don't think it's annoying.

02. 규현 - Smile
Speaking of SuJu's comeback, I've somehow fallen for the 13-member-group's youngest, Kyuhyun (mind you, he's 21). Smile is a simple jazzy piece and Kyuhyun, already blessed with a beautiful powerful voice, sings this song in such a low sexy tone you can't help but be relaxed and completely immersed in the gorgeous mix of the piano, orchestra and his voice.

03. KAT-TUN - RESCUE
Even without my bias, this is a very good song, argubly one of their stronger singles. KAT-TUN strays away from their more typical rock-flavored pop music to bring a vocally multi-layered trance piece. The boys deliver strong vocals as well. Add in an addicting English (or Engrish) chorus and they're set for another success!

04. 張力尹 - 星願 (I WILL)
Although I've only started listening to Li Yin in recent months, her voice is really captivating. It is ultimately a sweet song about how everlasting love and how people strive towards it. I can't help but smile a little when I hear the lines "輕輕說愛你你是我無悔追溯的方向". I like that the music isn't too loud; it serves as a compliment to Li Yin's gentle yet strong voice.

05. 東方神起 - Survivor
This is actually an interesting song, because Junsu starts it off really intense and serious, accompanied by a heavy heavy beat, so it sort of hooks you in, but then by the chorus, Jaejoong is singing about smiles and love. Still, strong performance by the Toho boys; it's really likeable and easy to sing along too!

06. 東方神起 - Kiss The Baby Sky
Although Bolero is my favorite out of the three triple A-sides, I put Kiss The Baby Sky on the list because the PV just came out like two days ago and this song does nothing but make your day a lot better, and you're left with a true smile on your face. The song makes you feel as if a bucket of sunshine was just handed to you. Plus, it's written by Yoochun, what more can you ask for? As always, Tohoshinki sings this sweet song incredibely (the range is actually pretty high) well.

07. 蕭敬騰 - 收藏
I think Jam Hsiao has an awesome versatile voice, it somehow just fits with different genres of music. I refer to this song as the "Burning Piano" song (I think) because I can't remember the actual name, but joking aside, this is brilliant, love how the song escalates as it progresses. And it gives me the feeling of letting go but not in a sad way.

08. Utada - Merry Christmas Mr. Lawrence - FYI
I'm probably not as hyped up as Ken is, but Utada Hikaru is still nevertheless my favorite female singer and I'm pretty excited for her new American album. She's so clever, she's leaking her own songs to promote the album. Come Back To Me was pretty good, but this song simply owns. It has that unique Hikki sound and although the lyrics are more shallow than her Japanese works, this is probably has a lot more meaning than almost any other American track out there right now.

09. Big Bang - CRAZY DOG
It's really obvious that I like songs with heavy beats or a dance feel to it. CRAZY DOG is no exception. I can imagine this playing in a club and somehow this song just blends really well. This is something I always listen to when I need an energy boost. Oh and Tiff and I love imitating G-Dragon's OH MAI GAHD line. Up to a certain point, it becomes kind of cute.

10. ゴスペラーズ - 永遠に
The Gospellers are amazing, I wish I had known about them a lot sooner. This is probably their most famous song, and with good reason. Love songs are really common and a lot of them have profound meanings, but this is really romantic and you simply just fall for it, just like you'd fall in love with that special person. I like listening to this before I go to sleep or when I'm tired and feel like I need a break as well!

YAY DONE. AND SO! KEN AND I ARE GOING TO GO SEE UTADA HIKARU DURING SPRING BREAK BECAUSE SHE'S HAVING A SIGNING EVENT IN HOLLYWOOD AND WE ARE NOT PASSING UP THIS OPPORTUNITY. NOTHING'S STOPPING US EITHER. OMG I'M SO HAPPY.

Now I have to study for my Japanese art exam tomorrow. I need an A or else I won't get a decent final grade. D:

Comeback maybe?

2009-03-10T22:45:00.001-07:00

Should be studying, but ah well, saw Connie blogging and decided maybe I'll give RL/random blogging another shot soon. Wish me luck. :D

back (:

2008-06-26T23:08:00.000-07:00

Been back since Monday and slowly adjusting back. :D Except I already had things to do. More on the vacation later!

Wednesday morning was. . .just bleh, for the lack of words to describe it. Doctor decided it was time for another blood test and to be honest, I haven't taken one for a couple of years. I hate anything involving medical needles, and when I was younger I use to cry right before the test. Anyhow I don't cry anymore but I hate the pain.

So we go to lab and we wait for about 30 minutes before it's my turn. I sit down and all that fine stuff waiting for the person to pull out all the vials he needed. Then he had to find the vein to draw the blood. And he takes a long time trying to find it and when he finally thought he got it, he sticks the needle in. All right that's fine. BUT NO BLOOD COMES OUT. D: The person then starts to jab the needle, which is in my arm, in all these directions. I thought I was going to throw up or something, because he kept doing it for about five minutes. Then I go "ummm maybe you should try the other arm because I usually get blood there." I'm desperately trying to get him to stop moving the needle in my arm arm in opposite directions. Finally, he takes the needle out and I have to go over the whole procedure on my left arm before he finds blood. D:

After I left the lab, my mom was like "geez you look like you died." ): Not funnnn.

Today though, was my orientation at UCSD. It was just one day, instead of the typical two day orientation where you stay overnight, the reason being my dad would be too tired to drive four hours total from the LA area down to SD for two days straight. In short it was all about the courses I'll have to take next year and a more in-depth introduction to my college at UCSD (which is split into 6 sub-colleges). There was stuff about housing, student activities, and peer counseling, etc etc.

Best part of the orientation was that I found myself a roommate. It was kind of unexpected too because I wasn't planning on making any new friends. I'm actually kind of quiet when I meet people the first time around. But this girl and I just clicked really well, primarily because we had so many similarities: we're both Cantonese, both live in the LA area, both took German as the high school foreign language, and wheee we both like Japanese music/dramas. I don't think she's a huge JE fan, but she definitely knows them. Her most definite favorite is Utada Hikaru. :D And she's really relaxed about everything, so that's perfect for me. We just kept talking and talking and eventually we were both like "oh hey maybe we should room together!" So we both threw in our roommate requests as soon as we got home. :D Hopefully everything will work out!

Thank you!

2008-05-28T17:50:00.000-07:00

To my friends: thank you so much for making the whole Monday a wonderful wonderful 18th birthday party, and there's still some time before I'm actually 18. I find it kind of hard to put it out, but in simple terms, I was really happy the whole day and even happier with all the cards and the thoughts that came with it. Every one of the cards, from Steph's double cards to Sandra's pop-up card and Connie's pink-and-green card, I read more than once before sleeping. And of course, the fabulous new external hard drive and the body pillow! And so much more lovely gifts.

I'm really grateful I met each one of you. (:

For today

2008-05-12T16:34:00.000-07:00

Some serious things and fun things today.

I was surprised to hear this when I got home today, but the earthquake in the Szechuan Province in China has affected so many people. It was bad enough that almost all regions in China could feel it, as well as Hong Kong and Taiwan. I hope that the people there will be able to pick up and quickly and also that they will be safe soon. I hope my relatives and friends there are alright too.

The earthquake also affected my family here, but in a much less tragic way, thankfully. We had been planning to go to Szechuan in June for a while now, but after this, my parents decided to change our trip to Hokkaido, with a stop in Hong Kong and Macau for five days before and another stop in Tokyo for 2 or 3 days afterwards. I can say I'm really happy and grateful that my parents gave me a trip I've been thinking about for a while. Not necessarily Hokkaido (still excited though of course), but I had always wanted to go to Hong Kong and Tokyo in one vacation, and even if the total amount of days in those two places equals up to a week, I'm glad. The "issue" now is that my parents are leaving the Tokyo planning to me, because "I'm the only one who wants to go there." The only thing that I know for sure in my mind is that I have to visit the Johnny's Shop in Harajuku. (:

I fail badly at this.

2008-04-30T23:57:00.000-07:00

Everything's been okay I guess? I fail at updating though. ): Sunday was great, meeting Matsumoto Jun and watching his new movie. Definitely something I'll never forget! He looks so awesome in real life and he was really nice, I was seriously impressed.

On the other hand, I've been having weird dreams and sleeping . . .issues? Actually the dreams aren't weird, most of the time it's just me running around all over some huge, extremely dark place, while everything around me keeps moving. What happens when I wake up is that I'm extremely dizzy and I can't get out of bed unless I really force myself. Sandra and I had also talked about feeling there's pressure moving up our limbs either right before we fall asleep (Sandra's case) or right after we wake up (my case).

Wow, that was a .. .random post about sleep. x] I guess it's something interesting to discuss in the midst of the crazy balance of getting ready for prom, which I'm really excited for, and IB/AP testing.

7 x 7 Things

2008-04-21T21:46:00.000-07:00

Been busy and lazy. And sleepy, but that's not anything new. Anyways, this was a meme I snagged from a LJ friend. Looked a bit interesting, so I thought why not do it?

SEVEN THINGS THAT SCARE YOU
1. Snails, slugs, anything of the like.
2. Academic tests/exams. Especially math and science related. Woes.
3. Horror movies. Cannot watch them. I'll keep my sleep, thank you very much.
4. Mr. Collins when he's being all rawr about history and demanding we do this and this, but it's not funny at all. D:
5. Domestic violence.
6. Over-the-top fangirls. Those extremely obsessive, nonsense ones.
7. Death, dying.

SEVEN THINGS YOU LIKE THE MOST

1. My family.
2. Friends! <3>

SEVEN RANDOM FACTS ABOUT YOU
1. I live on an island.
2. I’m first generation; my parents are from Japan.
3. I work at Hollister. Bahhh.
4. I am graduating high school in a couple of months. Which is great and all, but I don’t want to leave my friends. :(
5. Kodomo no Omocha (or Kodocha) is the first manga I’ve ever owned. But not the first I’ve read.
6. I’m so indecisive, it hurts.
7. I have a ridiculous amount of socks. People seem to think I need socks or something because I keep on receiving them.

SEVEN THINGS YOU PLAN TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE
1. Go on a road trip or something with my friends.
2. Skydive. Which is dumb since I'm not very fond of heights. I still want to do it anyway. 8|
3. Get married, haha.
4. Crash a wedding.
5. Own a mogura. A cute and small one. Why yes, this is stupid. Why yes, I am lame.
6. Visit Laos. At least twice.
7. Have a kid, I guess. >:

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SEVEN THINGS YOU CAN’T DO

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SEVEN THINGS THAT ATTRACT YOU TO THE OPPOSITE SEX

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SEVEN THINGS YOU SAY THE MOST

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SEVEN CELEB CRUSHES
1. Arashi; I had to put the whole band because I was too lame to pick just one of them. DD:
2. NewS; haha, again, I couldn’t pick just one boy.
3. Kamakari Kenta; also extremely cute. D:
4. Chad Michael Murray; idc what you all say. He's damn hot.
5. Oguri Shun; as Hanazawa Rui from Hana Yori Dango. Shut up.
6. Jung Yunho; though I was tempted to put the whole band. alsdkjasd
7. Channing Tatum; stfu he’s not that lame.

alskdjasd I couldn’t think of American actors or singers for some reason. D8

SEVEN PEOPLE YOU WANT TO SEE TAKE THIS TEST
EVERYONE. REBEL AGAINST CHOOSING ONLY SEVEN PEOPLE. >:DD

I can fly to the sky!

2008-04-04T16:12:00.001-07:00

After some poking and saying "GIMME", Eric Sagata finally shared with me all Fly To The Sky songs. I remember Stephanie introducing me to them with the songs 그대는 모르죠 (Good-bye) and Sea of Love in the freshman year. Sadly I lost all my FTTS music when my computer crashed about a year ago. But at the time I had actually bought their Best Album Eternity, which I thought (and still think) was a very worthwhile purchase.

Fly To The Sky sings a great deal of slower songs, which for the most part I really enjoy, and the R&B sound and Brian and Fany's vocals make a perfect combination. My two personal favorites that haven't change for the longest time are 별...(Like shining stars...) and 약속 (The Promise). I can also safely say that Fly To The Sky is my favorite Korean artist!

Today was also the final pep rally (unless we get a surprise one I think), I'm really happy with the result, especially after last time when the seniors were disqualified from the start. :) SPRING BREAK STARTS NOW!

hello all.

2008-04-03T00:12:00.000-07:00

Spontaneous ramblings and postings will go here now too. (: Flailing and spazzing of the fangirling type also included!

There's not much going on right now, other than the fact I realized I've been having a migraine on and off for the last two weeks. Throbbing pain is extremely distracting.

Of course, Spring Break is just right around the corner. It'll be the busiest one ever, but I'm sure it'll be a lot of fun. Let's enjoy it!