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Need to stop forgetting about blogging

I need to turn to blogging more often...I don't know what happened. Last year, I posted a lot more, now even on LJ, I don't write as much...it's not that there's nothing to do, I just can't seem to sit down and type.

Still, before I realize, summer is coming to a close and now...I'm going to look back at the "goals" I had set for myself.

Got a job! Most of you guys already know, I should be working in Sam's mom's insurance office as an assistant of some sort. Hopefully I can do really well and expect a little more out of it. Kinda anxious for it to start, definitely.
So how did this turn out? Actually...pretty good. I got a nice little sum for working there, learned some basic working/office skills, got to sit in an office with air conditioning~

I made the choice to learn Japanese, so this summer, I'm still going to open the textbooks and review my Japanese, especially grammar. I want to be proficient! So I can to go to Japan again and get around without too much English and wild hand gestures...
This is the one...I didn't exactly get time to go over. But hmm seeing that I have about 10 days left before going back to SD, maybe I still have a chance to refresh everything.

...Which means, I must make a return to watching Jdramas.
But somehow...I did get around to watching two dramas while on vacation! Kimura Takuya's MR. BRAIN and Amani Yuki's BOSS. Both are under the mystery/detective genre, which I've realized I really like to watch now.

Learn more around the kitchen. Last summer I learned how to prepare food to be cooked, this time I hope to be able to at least cook up some simple dishes from my dad.
I did learn how to sauteed and certain rules for cooking certain foods...frying fish is a bit fun, but I'm still not used to hot oil jumping on to my skin.

In general though, still be of more help to my parents. (: I admit I don't like housework, but I need to be less lazy and spend more time with my family.
Haha this one I got done, in fact today I just cleaned all the blinds in my room, something that my mom has done every summer.

That's really it for now. Getting ready to get back into the swing of university life soon! (:

Summer so far...

So now it's the end of July, almost about halfway through this summer. I forgot about blogging here until today. What have I been up to?
Pretty much, this is one busy yet boring summer. Of course, I shouldn't be complaining of the fact that I have a job, but I'm waking up earlier than I ever did during the first year of college and it's a bit hard to believe I'm sitting in the same chair for about 8 hours every Monday through Friday. I know this is the office life and most people go through this without complaining at all, but I can't help it at the moment. None of this has to do with my boss, who is, as many of you guys know, is Sam's mom. She's very much like her son, laid back and generally happy.
That's not really the main point of the post though. Sadly, this is a not-so-happy post. Weird thing is, I'm feeling lonely right now. I hope I don't sound like I'm seeking attention or being extremely whiny. I know one of the reasons for this are the circumstances I'm under right now. Everyone I want to see is far away, whether the friends are 45 minutes away or all over California or in Taiwan, China, Singapore. Of course, I've been talking online and that does help though. And I have my brother, who provides me hours and hours of amusement. Sucks though, because I've been getting into stupid arguments/misunderstandings with my mom and sometimes just venting a bit to my brother doesn't exactly help.
Regardless though, I think I'll be able to get through this alright. I just need some time. And besides, in a few more weeks, I'll be on a real vacation, where work isn't involved and I can relax.

When the blue sky and ocean shine and overlap, the tears will dry, summer is smiling

Just like Connie, for me, the end of my first year in college is soon coming to a close. What Thomas said today, I also agree: things will be different next school year (not that they'll be bad) so we should cherish the memories of this year! Couldn't help getting a bit emotional and especially thinking how I'll be this summer (in a certain relationship with a certain someone that I know you guys know what I'm talking about). I just want this to pull through summer just fine, seriously, I know I might overthink things, but it's something I can't help?

But on a lighter note though, there are things to look forward for the summer and goals to fulfill (or at the very least, give a good effort in trying to fulfill).
-Got a job! Most of you guys already know, I should be working in Sam's mom's insurance office as an assistant of some sort. Hopefully I can do really well and expect a little more out of it. Kinda anxious for it to start, definitely.
-I made the choice to learn Japanese, so this summer, I'm still going to open the textbooks and review my Japanese, especially grammar. I want to be proficient! So I can to go to Japan again and get around without too much English and wild hand gestures.
-Which means, I must make a return to watching Jdramas.
-Learn more around the kitchen. Last summer I learned how to prepare food to be cooked, this time I hope to be able to at least cook up some simple dishes from my dad.
-In general though, still be of more help to my parents. (: I admit I don't like housework, but I need to be less lazy and spend more time with my family.

Looks like a good list to fulfill for now. If there's anything else, I'll mention it next time!

oh when you tell me you love me, when you tell me thousands and millions of times...

Funny that I somehow manage to turn this blog into a place to dump sad thoughts. You can tell that I've been alright this last month. But hey, there should be more things written here, whether they're short or long. (Random) thoughts so far:

-I really want to make special ringtones for everyone, just like the way Ken does it...except my phone can't hold up that many songs. D:
-Despite the fact I can last more than just 2 weeks at UCSD before wanting to go home, as always, no matter what, being home is really nice. Kind of like a getaway from all the hectic parts of university life.
-Looking forward to HKSU's dance on Friday and the kayaking event on Sunday!
-Looking even MORE forward to tonight's high school reunion whoooo! And the dinner my parents are preparing for the whole family tonight. :D
-I. need. a. job. :/
-Still thinking about where I want to apply to for study abroad. Actually the choices have been narrowed down to two, and these two look so much fun haha...

Break the Records

Music really does things for you, especially when you love the artist(s). KAT-TUN's new album is really good, I like all the songs and this new yet still-very-KAT-TUN-ish style. (:

How is it I feel the need to blog whenever there's studying to be done? Maybe it's because the stress. Anyhow, I've got to remember to blog more often...almost one month has passed and yeah of course, relationship-wise, I'm happy. Time flies and I want the best for this. Funny though, when parents enter the picture. I know that it's because I'm their daughter and this is the first relationship I've ever been in, but it sort makes me a bit down when there's a chance that my parents won't approve of Sam. I told my mom on the phone today that I didn't want that, because that wouldn't be good of course. And ironically it was my mom who said back to me, "well if you really do like him, then you wouldn't care whether or not your dad and I approved of him or not". And it's true right? As freaking sappy as it sounds, after the phone conversation I had to talk to Sam and tell him that even if my parents disapproved of him, I'd still want to be with him.

Still I respect my parents very much and I hope that when someday the whole "meeting the parents" thing comes along, it'll be perfectly fine so that I can look back at this and think "haha how silly I was to be worrying about this then". Maybe it's because I haven't experienced the nasty combination of love and rough reality yet. It's something I really rather not have to deal with though. Still, at the same time, maybe it's just me thinking way too much? Being self-conscious is a "weakness" of mine, I admit. Don't get me wrong, there's nothing I regret about this, just today's circumstances just made me think a little more than usual.

Just as planned we're the winners, no wonder we are team of dream

What to say? I should probably not use this blog as this place to dump all my sad thoughts...not saying I was always planning to do that, but the last few posts sure seemed like it.

It's not like the few people who read this blog don't know about what's been going on for the last couple of weeks, so yes, I will say that I'm pretty happy right now. However, I think I slept too much today.. I love sleeping and all, but I feel pretty exhausted.

Yeah okay something with more substance next time around. :P

L-O-V-E you, I was made to be with you

Epik High is so awesome.

Before I even had time to think about it, spring break is almost over. I've been doing a lot of stuff for the past week and I'm really happy I was able to spend time with both my friends and family throughout the week! Monday was afternon shopping with Connie, Tuesday was going off to Hollywood to see Utada with Tiff, Ken, Kim, Eric, Willis, and Will~~~ Wednesday was lunch with Jono! Yesterday night was the spring break get-together of our high school friends, but new faces showed up and it was a lot of fun just to relax, eat, and talk. All this just makes me think of how lucky I am to have such a life, with wonderful friends and family. Yeah I'm always talking about it, but I really mean it.

In general I'm very happy, although there's something that's making me confused. Not going to say what, but it does make things seem like a roller coaster.

you've got the wrong number

I didn't know what to title this entry, but Wrong Number just so happened to play, so...there we go.

Blogging about my actual life and the thoughts that go around in my head is actually something I need to get used to, because I have to say it's kind of hard for me to express myself sometimes, especially online. Fangirling is one thing, that's easy. This, umm..."blogging issue" has nothing to do with friends, I love you guys for always being there for me even when I'm being really weird and unreasonable; it's more of something I have to deal with myself I guess? Finals were really hectic and now that I'm sitting on my bed with plenty of time to think, this is the first that pops up in my mind.

The last post is still sort of with me, I think I might have found out what's been eating at me, but once again, I'm not too sure if what I'm assuming is actually it...Haha I'm still confusing myself huh? I'll be okay though, spring break is here and it should be fun!

heartquake

All of a sudden I feel like my heart and mind are feeling really heavy, enough I want to tear them out. But I can't do that, because guess what, I have no idea what's going on in my head. And it's not academic stress. It's not something I can or want to talk about (I'm lost and confused), but I feel like I had to throw this out somewhere, and so this blog will do for now. I think I'll sink myself into a lot of DBSK's ballads for the time being, maybe they'll do the trick.

The first music list of many!

Combining Connie and Ken's music list, so here I'm posting 10 songs that 1) I've discovered/been listening to lately (as in the last two weeks) and 2) I'm liking very much. They're not in any particular ranking. I like making song lists, hopefully they'll have a lot more meaning in them though. But they'll probably be centered around artists though, it's easier for me.

01. Super Junior - 쏘리 쏘리 (SORRY, SORRY)
sorry sorry sorry sorry / shawty shawty shawty...I've had these lines running through my head for the whole week. Super Junior returns to the Korean music scene (today) with a catchy yet sophisticated dance song with heavy beats. Yes the chorus is repetitive but somehow this song works and I don't think it's annoying.

02. 규현 - Smile
Speaking of SuJu's comeback, I've somehow fallen for the 13-member-group's youngest, Kyuhyun (mind you, he's 21). Smile is a simple jazzy piece and Kyuhyun, already blessed with a beautiful powerful voice, sings this song in such a low sexy tone you can't help but be relaxed and completely immersed in the gorgeous mix of the piano, orchestra and his voice.

03. KAT-TUN - RESCUE
Even without my bias, this is a very good song, argubly one of their stronger singles. KAT-TUN strays away from their more typical rock-flavored pop music to bring a vocally multi-layered trance piece. The boys deliver strong vocals as well. Add in an addicting English (or Engrish) chorus and they're set for another success!

04. 張力尹 - 星願 (I WILL)
Although I've only started listening to Li Yin in recent months, her voice is really captivating. It is ultimately a sweet song about how everlasting love and how people strive towards it. I can't help but smile a little when I hear the lines "輕輕說愛你 你是我無悔 追溯的方向". I like that the music isn't too loud; it serves as a compliment to Li Yin's gentle yet strong voice.

05. 東方神起 - Survivor
This is actually an interesting song, because Junsu starts it off really intense and serious, accompanied by a heavy heavy beat, so it sort of hooks you in, but then by the chorus, Jaejoong is singing about smiles and love. Still, strong performance by the Toho boys; it's really likeable and easy to sing along too!

06. 東方神起 - Kiss The Baby Sky
Although Bolero is my favorite out of the three triple A-sides, I put Kiss The Baby Sky on the list because the PV just came out like two days ago and this song does nothing but make your day a lot better, and you're left with a true smile on your face. The song makes you feel as if a bucket of sunshine was just handed to you. Plus, it's written by Yoochun, what more can you ask for? As always, Tohoshinki sings this sweet song incredibely (the range is actually pretty high) well.

07. 蕭敬騰 - 收藏
I think Jam Hsiao has an awesome versatile voice, it somehow just fits with different genres of music. I refer to this song as the "Burning Piano" song (I think) because I can't remember the actual name, but joking aside, this is brilliant, love how the song escalates as it progresses. And it gives me the feeling of letting go but not in a sad way.

08. Utada - Merry Christmas Mr. Lawrence - FYI
I'm probably not as hyped up as Ken is, but Utada Hikaru is still nevertheless my favorite female singer and I'm pretty excited for her new American album. She's so clever, she's leaking her own songs to promote the album. Come Back To Me was pretty good, but this song simply owns. It has that unique Hikki sound and although the lyrics are more shallow than her Japanese works, this is probably has a lot more meaning than almost any other American track out there right now.

09. Big Bang - CRAZY DOG
It's really obvious that I like songs with heavy beats or a dance feel to it. CRAZY DOG is no exception. I can imagine this playing in a club and somehow this song just blends really well. This is something I always listen to when I need an energy boost. Oh and Tiff and I love imitating G-Dragon's OH MAI GAHD line. Up to a certain point, it becomes kind of cute.

10. ゴスペラーズ - 永遠に
The Gospellers are amazing, I wish I had known about them a lot sooner. This is probably their most famous song, and with good reason. Love songs are really common and a lot of them have profound meanings, but this is really romantic and you simply just fall for it, just like you'd fall in love with that special person. I like listening to this before I go to sleep or when I'm tired and feel like I need a break as well!

YAY DONE. AND SO! KEN AND I ARE GOING TO GO SEE UTADA HIKARU DURING SPRING BREAK BECAUSE SHE'S HAVING A SIGNING EVENT IN HOLLYWOOD AND WE ARE NOT PASSING UP THIS OPPORTUNITY. NOTHING'S STOPPING US EITHER. OMG I'M SO HAPPY.

Now I have to study for my Japanese art exam tomorrow. I need an A or else I won't get a decent final grade. D:

Comeback maybe?

Should be studying, but ah well, saw Connie blogging and decided maybe I'll give RL/random blogging another shot soon. Wish me luck. :D